I know it has been a while since I last spoke to you. My last conversation with you here was about the changes I was experiencing in my life. In the midst of those changes I had to ask myself- Who I was and who I wanted to be? Whoever tells you that this process is fun is definitely not telling you the truthJ
The environmental factors which weren’t in my control were reshaping me in such a way that I saw no better way but to surrender and quieted this side of me. I had surrendered with a prayer that if this piece was still needed of me then it would flow back in with ease. What I can tell you is that it has been easy in a way and not so much in many other ways (internally).
When I saw it coming back I questioned it and felt like I didn’t know anything yet again. This isn’t a comfortable feeling to have if you have experienced it. The thing about questioning is that it can soon turn into self-doubt. It very easy to feed into a mind trap which makes you believe that you perhaps aren’t good enough to dive back in. It took a couple of months of battling with doubt, asking for signs to guide me and promising myself that I would take action when I get my sign.
One of my signs was in the form of a woman whom I admire and her mere presence reignited the life within me. You know it when you feel it and there’s no other way to describe it. After a 2 year hiatus, I logged back in to my WordPress and clicked on ‘forgot password’ and ‘reset my password’ which is only another metaphor to my current state. Simply loving this! There couldn’t be a better time for this to occur than the spring season.
Thank you for reading and relating to this,
My best to you,
P.S: I only write when I so choose to and I am grateful that I can do so.